I am sick. Again. I am so tired of this.
Nausea (constant); no vomiting yet, but I have come very close; diarrhea; stomach pain; sounds from my tummy that sound like water boiling; swelling in certain areas; joint pain; patches on my body; fever, etc, etc, etc....
This stupid Cimzia is NOT working. If it is, this is ridiculous. I am so tired. I just want to sleep all day long.
Plus, I put my two weeks in on Friday at my job. I am going back to a position I held before where I can make up the weekdays off on the weekends (for my dr appts), benefits, closer to home, and better pay structure. But, it's retail and it's a lot of hours on my feet. I just hope my body is up for this. The way I feel right now makes me nervous because I have zero energy.
Have I mentioned before how much I hate Crohn's Disease? Because I do. A whole hell of a lot.
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Sooo....
…I just turned in my review. Yes, it was glowing. J Yes, I think highly of myself. But, what can I say? I’m awesome.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
2009
I am glad to see her go. This has been a rough year for me.
It started with some pretty serious marriage problems. Believe me, nothing hurts (that I have experienced) worse than marital problems. We worked through it, for the most part, but still deal with it pretty regularly. Who knows where we will be in 5 years?
Obviously, I had a lot of health problems this year. So much so that I lost my job due to it. I had/have a really hard time dealing with this. I had planned to retire with this company and then I was cut loose while I was laying in the hospital. I learned all the people I worked with, the friends I thought I had made, the people I fought for and helped out on a daily basis - didn't give a shit about me. That hurts worse than losing a job. I wish I could find a mature way to express my anger and hurt to them, but there isn't one. Instead, I deal with the pain of all of this silently and, occasionally still, crying about it.
Financial. Oh boy, let's not go there. Let's just say, I am paying $43,000 out of pocket due to aforementioned issue.
Friendships: wow, have my friendships changed. I have realized I have no one that I am really close to. I can't tell my husband everything because some of the stuff that I am hurting about involves him. My best friend and I are nowhere near as close as we used to be. This makes me so sad - I love her and I miss her; not to mention, that I need her in my life. People that I worked with that I thought were my friends turned their backs on me in some of my roughest times. I don't trust people too much anymore. At least once a month, I go through my Facebook and delete people who only have me as their friend because I up their numbers.
I know I said I wasn't going to post anything depressing - but I needed to get this off my chest. I hope 2010 is better for me; I don't know how much else I can take...
It started with some pretty serious marriage problems. Believe me, nothing hurts (that I have experienced) worse than marital problems. We worked through it, for the most part, but still deal with it pretty regularly. Who knows where we will be in 5 years?
Obviously, I had a lot of health problems this year. So much so that I lost my job due to it. I had/have a really hard time dealing with this. I had planned to retire with this company and then I was cut loose while I was laying in the hospital. I learned all the people I worked with, the friends I thought I had made, the people I fought for and helped out on a daily basis - didn't give a shit about me. That hurts worse than losing a job. I wish I could find a mature way to express my anger and hurt to them, but there isn't one. Instead, I deal with the pain of all of this silently and, occasionally still, crying about it.
Financial. Oh boy, let's not go there. Let's just say, I am paying $43,000 out of pocket due to aforementioned issue.
Friendships: wow, have my friendships changed. I have realized I have no one that I am really close to. I can't tell my husband everything because some of the stuff that I am hurting about involves him. My best friend and I are nowhere near as close as we used to be. This makes me so sad - I love her and I miss her; not to mention, that I need her in my life. People that I worked with that I thought were my friends turned their backs on me in some of my roughest times. I don't trust people too much anymore. At least once a month, I go through my Facebook and delete people who only have me as their friend because I up their numbers.
I know I said I wasn't going to post anything depressing - but I needed to get this off my chest. I hope 2010 is better for me; I don't know how much else I can take...
Monday, December 14, 2009
Mean Girls
I work in a company that is (surprisingly) mostly women. However that comes with a price tag. Recently I was informed that a "friend" of mine has proven herself otherwise. Let's call this friend Fern. Fern became friends with myself and two other women here at work. When we finished training and joined our respective teams, our schedules were somewhat different. Our lunch hours were no longer all at noon - but varying times. Fern's was always different everyday and never at a decent time, so we eventually quit asking her to join us. I don't know if this upset her or what, but I digress...
Fern recently told her team leader (quite loudly) that the reason I and these other two women go out for lunch together is so we can go out and complain about our jobs. She said this loudly enough for other people to hear, including a director.
I have a big problem with someone trying to smear my name just to make them feel better about themselves. I don't know what she thinks she is trying to gain from this, but I can tell you it's not friendship. She is no longer my friend and I have debated either confronting her or going directly to HR about this. I don't want her to think that she can talk about other people and get away with it! It irritates me that someone (who really has no idea about my character or my work ethic) can plant the seed of doubt in their mind. What should I do? Hmmm....
Fern recently told her team leader (quite loudly) that the reason I and these other two women go out for lunch together is so we can go out and complain about our jobs. She said this loudly enough for other people to hear, including a director.
I have a big problem with someone trying to smear my name just to make them feel better about themselves. I don't know what she thinks she is trying to gain from this, but I can tell you it's not friendship. She is no longer my friend and I have debated either confronting her or going directly to HR about this. I don't want her to think that she can talk about other people and get away with it! It irritates me that someone (who really has no idea about my character or my work ethic) can plant the seed of doubt in their mind. What should I do? Hmmm....