I am sad today.  I don’t know why, but I am.  Yesterday was a frustrating day at work (I won’t bore you with the details), but it left me feeling drained.  I went out to dinner last night with my friends Suzanne and Evelyn and it was great.  We went to Houlihan’s – super yummy food.  I had a good time at home after I arrived and my morning went fine.  I get back to work and I feel like I’m going to start crying.  I don’t really want to talk to anyone, either.  I am sitting in my cubicle with my iPod in my ears, tuning out the office and just trying to function through the day.

I suppose this is the depression creeping in on my life again.  I just hope it doesn’t last through the weekend – that would suck.  Anyone with clinical depression knows that you can’t just make it go away.  Mine is intermittent, coming and going as it pleases.  It doesn’t care about my family, it doesn’t care about my plans for the day (or upcoming days), it doesn’t care about what time of day it is.  My depression has a mind of its own and nothing I do stops it.  Yes, I could take medicine to regulate it, but that also dampens the happy moments I have.  I don’t like not being able to have emotions.  My depression is not horrible – it just gives me random sad days.  Joe knows about it and is quite understanding of it, so that’s nice.  The Girl doesn’t get it, of course.

I just want to cry, though.  Poo on you, depression!!!