I have another blog on Tumblr (actually, I have two). One is for just bs posts of things I think about throughout the day, the other is for comments on religion, news stories I read throughout the day, and political musings. This blog I keep for longer, more personal posts. The other blogs make no mention of my husband's name or daughter's name (actually I don't here, either), but they are not discussed at all really, there.
ANYWAY...the point of this post? Hmmm...Oh. Yes.
Since December 2009, I have lost weight. The first 12 pounds of it was me trying to lose weight. I used the Alli plan...effective, but gross. Essentially, you poop a lot. And, it's nasty. The remaining 49 pounds was just from me being sick from my Crohn's Disease. Meaning, I did nothing to lose that weight except be sick for a year and a half.
I am at my lowest weight I have been in years. I am at the weight I was at when I got married. I want to be 40 pounds less than where I am now. So...I am going to start blogging about it. I am going to be completely open and honest about my weight and my weight-loss journey. Here goes nothing...
(For S&G, I will "start" where I was at my highest point, since I do count that in this "journey".)
SW: Dec 2008 - 244 (pant size: 18 - really should have been a 22/24)
CW: Mar 2011 - 184.5 (pant size: 14 - some days a 12)
GW: 140 (pant size: I hope a 6/8)
I have started a walking program of walking at least a half an hour a day. Yesterday was shorter as it was flipping FREEZING outside and I couldn't feel my face half-way through. Plus, DD was with me and she was too cold. However, I am going to stick with it. It's free, it's easy, and it's relaxing. Diet wise...well, I know what I need to do. I have started it already...I am cutting WAY back on carbs (because I lived on them before), eliminating red meat and pork as much as possible, no more fried foods, no breaded foods, and a shit ton of veggies. I am going to see how these changes work over the next week and decide if I need to start watching my caloric intake to a "T". If so, then so be it.
I haven't been my goal weight since high school...so it will be a change. But, I am ready. I'm tired of wearing jeans in the summer because I am so self-conscious of the way I look in shorts. I am tired of being hot in the summer because of my overall wardrobe choices and just the extra weight adding heat. I am tired of being uncomfortable in a bathing suit. I am tired of not doing certain activities because I am too fat. I am tired of feeling self-conscious in front of my husband of almost eight years because of my weight. I am tired of thinking any comments about fat people that others make are secretly directed towards me.
I will admit that I am much more happy with my body now than a year ago and you can DEFINITELY see a difference. BUT I WANT MORE!!!!
HERE WE GO!!!!
(pic of me (at work) at 183 lbs - sorry for the crappy cell picture and non-full length, too)
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